minda ahmui

Running Away

2012-02-11T18:16:00.002+08:00

banyak perkara yang dah kau canangkan, banggakan. sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga kan? sehebat monyet mengaruk sampah di blok srikandi, akhirnya jadi bahan experiment di medical lab. bodoh.

terlalu bangga dengan apa yang kau jadi, apa yang kau ada, masih ada. nah, sekarang rasakan apakan yang pernah kau lontarkan terhadap spesis-spesis seperti yang kau telah kau jadi sekarang.

you used to have branded belongings, and now all you can have is just the second hands of the poor. take it, or you have none.

kelas LKU

2011-12-13T12:36:00.002+08:00

maybe i should tell you
maybe i should just keep this

i lie a little, and i lie a little bit more
so i put no trust
because i lie

i fall in a second, and then i fall a little longer
in the end, here i am, lying in your trust, i believe.

take me away, take me to the heaven you promised me
i trusted those words when i know i shouldn't be
i fell, yeah, i fell for you
i know this word, i've said that word
only the truth i might not get

LOVE.

Yesterday

2011-10-11T15:30:00.000+08:00

I wish you knew, I wish you knew
I wish you knew, I wish you knew

My broken wings, my broken heart
I ponder around, I wander around I try to find you all around
The love you had, the love I waste no longer looking at yesterday
I wish you knew how I'm holding on to yesterday
How I'm looking out to reach you out
To know if you are really gone, I wish you knew
My teary eyes, my torn heart
I lose my call, I lose my all in this dreams of yesterday
I lose myself, its something clear, just look at me how I am today

I wish you knew how my dreams were made of you
I wish you knew how my future's not over you
I wish you knew, I wish you knew.

Dedicated to hanan: now you see why the "I wish you knew" tweet? :p

It's Nearly Four

2011-05-14T03:45:00.003+08:00

it's the day we hold our hands
it's the day we broke the rules
the rules of breaking hearts
of each and everyone of them

could it be you've already left
or could it be you're still here
pretending to be gone
gone with the silence we never wanted

if you see me looking at you
if you see me smiling at you
would you smile back to me?
would you smile back to me?

it is true you are possessing me
it is true you have already own me
the things we've always dream of
the things we almost regret

life gets hard to go our way
so we listen to 'em
and go theirs
so i hire some heartless ear
wishing it could lead me somewhere near
maybe near you
maybe right beside you

14 0356H May 2011

IF I WAS A LOVE POET by Rudy Francisco

2011-01-16T12:24:00.000+08:00

I want you to bite my lips until I can no longer speak,
and then suck my ex-girlfriend's name out of my mouth just to make sure that she never comes up in our conversations.
I'm gonna be honest;
I'm not really a love poet.
In fact every time I try to write about love,
my hands cramp,
just to show me how painful love can be.
Sometimes my pencils break,
just to prove to me that every now and then love-
takes a little bit more work than you planned.
See, I heard that love is blind,
so I write all my poems in Braille.
And my poems are never actually finished because true love is endless.
See, I always believe that real love is kind of like a supermodel before she's airbrushed.
It's pure,
and imperfect,
just the way that God intended.
I'm gonna be honest;
I'm not a love poet.
But if I was to wake up tomorrow morning and decide that I really wanted to write about love… I swear that my first poem-
it would be about you.
About how I love you the same way that I learned how to ride a bike:
Scared.
But reckless.
With no training wheels, or elbow pads, so my scars can tell the story of how I fell for you.
You see, I'm not really a love poet.
But if I was,
I'd write about how I see your face in every cloud and your reflection in every window.
You see, I've written like a million poems hoping that somehow,
maybe some way you'll jump out of the page and be closer to me because if you were here,
right now,
I would massage your back until your skin sings songs that your lips don't even know the words.
Until your heartbeat sounds like my last name,
and you smile like the Pacific Ocean-
I want to drink the sunlight in your skin.
If I was a love poet,
I'd write about how you have the audacity to be beautiful,
even on days when everything around you is ugly.
You see, I'd write about your eyelashes and how they're like violin strings that play symphonies every time you blink.
If I was a love poet,
I'd write about how I melt in front of you like an ice sculpture every time I hear the vibration in your voice.
And whenever I see your name on the caller ID, my heart-
it plays hopscotch inside of my chest.
It climbs on to my ribs like monkey bars and I feel like a child all over again.
I know this sounds strange but every now and then,
I pray that God somehow turns you back into one of my ribs just so I would never have to spend an entire day without you.
But I swear,
I'm not a love poet.
But if I was to wake up tomorrow morning,
and decide that I really wanted to write about love,
you're my first poem; it would be about you.
Now, after all of that, she was like,
"So how do you feel about me?"
And I said,
"Let's put it like this:
I want to be your ex-boyfriend's stuntman.
I want to do everything that he never had the courage to do, like-
trust you.
I swear that when our lips touch,
I can taste the next sixty years of my life.
And some days I want to swallow stacks of your pictures just (so) you can be part of me a bit longer.
If I could,
I would sample your smile,
and then I would let my heartbeat do the bass line.
We would create the greatest love song of all time.
Whenever we stand next to each other-
love, I was the only one made for you,
and you-
can be at last, my Etta James.
I'll be all child when you're in pain.
Or you can be candy-coated drops of rain even though it never rains in Southern California.
And together,
we could be music.
And when my friends ask if you're my girlfriend,
I'll say, NO.
She is my musician.
And me…
I'm her favorite song.

Credit to Wani Ardy's weblog.

Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Don't Go

2011-01-01T09:48:00.002+08:00

the smile i see
has never gone out of my head
the eyes you blink
is the story i never want to end

i know
that this time it's real
that this little feet i'm walking
passing through the rain
i stopped, and cry

it's the sweetest smile you gave
the warmth you put me in
that shadows me all the way

it's the words you speak
and my hands you hold
confides me to the safest place
don't go

i should've waited
till i see that charming smile again
i should've stay connected
till i know that your heart was opened

i know
now that you're the best of you
the colors that ignored me
the memory and laughter
i stopped, and cry

it's the sweetest smile you gave
the warmth you put me in
that shadows me all the way

it's the words you speak
and my hands you hold
confides me to the safest place

don't go

Don't Give Up, Love

2010-12-28T15:17:00.003+08:00

cinta tak pandang
tak kira siapa
ia kan mencoba

selagi mana
pencinta terdaya menahannya
dia kan dicoba

sebelum gugur tercalar jiwa parah
jangan kau gugurkan air mata
sebelum putus tali Tuhan Yang Esa
jangan kau berputus asa

- SPIDER, Jangan Kau Berputus Asa

*credit to fahizah for introducing me to the song

stay the same

2010-10-12T08:35:00.003+08:00

You were right in front of my eyes
We talked we laughed we shared we smiled
Still we never thought to decide
Of who we be

When you cross me along the hallway
We meet the eyes and i can't stop to pray
That we'll never be far away
I'll be by your side

Seal our lips, seal our heart
Together we'll never fall apart
Say my love, say my name
Make me smile until the end of the day
Take my breath away
Stay with and stay the same

:)

Ashanti - Foolish

2010-09-18T03:25:00.005+08:00

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still i stay

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong
See when I'm home, I'm all alone
And you are always gone
And boy, you kno I really love you
I can't deny
I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears
after all these years

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Oohhhhh
I trusted you, I trusted you
So sad, so sad
what love will make you do
all the things that we accept
be the things that we regret
too all of my ladies (ladies) feel me
c'mon sing wit me
See, when I get the strength to leave
You always tell me that you need me
And I'm weak cause I believe you
And I'm mad because I love you
So I stop and think that maybe
You can learn to appreciate me
Then it all remains the same that
You ain't never gonna change
(never gonna change, never gonna change)

See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you
See my days are cold without you
Butm hurtin while im with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
Boy I gave you all my heart
And all you do is tear it up
Looking out my window
Knowing that I should go
Even when I pack my bags
This something always hold me back

if i am to stumble, hope it's upon you :)

2010-09-16T03:18:00.003+08:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they’re not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She’s so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don’t see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say
courtesy OriginaLyric.Info
When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she’d let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She’s so beautiful

And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you’re searching for
Then just stay the same

So don’t even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There’s not a thing that I would change
Cause you’re amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you’re amazing
Just the way you are

Selindungya

2010-08-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

kerasnya hati
kalau dilembut semua tak begini
kerasnya jiwa
kalau dipentas semua terluka

zahirnya keras, kental.... egois
lembutnya tak terlihatkan
lembutnya tak tertayangkan
fikirlah lembutnya, halusnya

jangan hanya ditatap senyum manisnya
tapi diselamlah perit jerihnya
redup mata penuh agoni
selindungnya terlalu sempurna

indahnya memori
teruslah disimpan jangan dicuri
indahnya berlari
di taman tanpa mawar berduri

zahirnya gelak, tawa.. sempurna
sakitnya tak dipeduli
kesalnya hanya monolog sendiri
bacalah di antara garisnya

****

jiwa ini butuh sahabat
dan terima kasih, aku bersyukur
Kau kurniakan mereka di sampingku

30 hari mencari ilham =.='

2010-07-31T15:12:00.001+08:00

lukiskan aku
dunia indah berseri
cacian maksud memuji
ku menanti
aku di sini

terangkan aku
dunia warna pelangi
takutnya maksud berani
ku menanti
aku di sini

tercapai minda
kau memahami aku
dan kadangkala
ku fikirkanmu
jangan pergi, jangan pergi

teruskanlah
cerita indah dunia
peringatkanlah
ini semua sementara
terima kasih
terima kasih kau selalu di sampingku

breakeven

2010-07-02T13:10:00.002+08:00

we are not deaf nor blind
yet we're still not talking
and not listening
I wonder what we are to be defined

we are not close
yet we have never been apart
but sometimes i question
have i ever been in your heart?

answer my question
because i have a definite one for you
tell me your emotions
because i have a definite one for you
answer my question
so in the end we can both smile with ease

*hapa benda tah ne.*

You

2010-06-17T19:36:00.003+08:00

You have the sweetest smile that could make me smile with no reasons at all.

You have the most flawless idea when it comes to unique being

You have the mind of a man can never see through

You have the heart of seriousness, but insanely lovely

You have the most of me when i was down and cheer me up

I would love to see that smile everyday in my life

So I can smile just the way you do, sweet sugar pie, flawless.

*blush*

ni bodoh-bodoh saja oke. hehe

DAN LAGI

2010-06-05T22:19:00.001+08:00

Am Em
detik bunyi indah itu
F
bersama kamu
Am Em
keindahan rasa
F Dm
bersama kamu

G
aku terjatuh, sakit lemah jiwa
Dm G
tak terbangun lagi

Dm
tak di sini lagi
G
tak di sisi lagi
Dm
senyumnya berpudar
C#
tangisnya kembali

Am
cubaan berdiri
Em G
masih menangis sepi
Am
indah purnama
Em F
tidak bermakna lagi

Dm G
aku terhina, tidak pantas ketawa
Dm G
tak tertanggung lagi

Am Em
hentikan detik indah bersama
Am Em
hentikan senyum indah ketawa
F G
berikan ku hati, mati

Dm G
aku terjatuh, sakit lemah jiwa
Dm G
tak terbangun lagi

*cough* and then *wide smile*

change

2010-06-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

yes, numerous times i have fought the feeling
to not drown in the world you promised
to not believe in the miracles you have made
to not walk in the path you're taking me

only because i have never said i love you

but,
no, never a single time that i won
those fights between the walls of love
mashing me form side to side
drowning me inside your love

and now i realized,
it is not that i want to win
but i am glad that i've lost in you

*gosh, love mangas. i should stop reading 'em. ;)

façade

2010-05-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

my mind is full of emptiness.
beautifully said it had merge
with the sounds of silence
and fellow mates of darkness.
minding my steps where i am going
so the unforgettable mistakes
on trustworthy
is blinked open and realized
that the world is so much more than this

awareness of heartache and discourage
is not supposed to be seen
look up, listen up, and speak up
LIVE up
life had so much more to offer than façades
it offers the laughter
of beautifully happy children; homeless

and that is all we need
to realize how far we had been
from the truth of life

*MJ, you're one of the best dead guy i ever remembered. cool.

awwhhh *pfft!

2010-05-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love is suicide

You say you've cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning for my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll
Give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to
Be the air for you
I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

Ashton Kutcher - A Lot Like Love (2005)

originally sang by Bon Jovi - I'll Be There For You

i'm hungry :(

2010-05-02T01:34:00.002+08:00

i see you
the good and the bad
you are perfect with your flaws

i see you
those bright blue eyes
and your sudden smile draws

i see you
i can see you
take a look at me

i want you to see
my darkest dark
my brightest bright

i want you to see
my ticking clock
my whole frank smile

because i can see you
so please
take a look at me

mood :: hunggarrraaayyhh!!

kenape ko pendek? :p

2010-04-26T17:50:00.003+08:00

soalan kau xboleh nak general lagi ke?

i don't promise any good answers :D

ko tulis2 puisi, tp apsal aku xpnah dngar pun ko bace kat sape2?

2010-04-26T17:50:00.001+08:00

aku baca kat orang2 yang di-dedicated-kan tu jelah. aku segan kat yang lain. plus, aku kan pemalu =.='

i don't promise any good answers :D

no idea #2

2010-04-26T09:55:00.002+08:00

i'm singing the rhythm of silence
hoping that you won't hear me
i guess my cry has been listened to

i rest my head on your chest
i hear the heartbeat
slowly yet furiously

everywhere i go
everywhere i've been
everything i know
is now i can finally see
that you and me
we're meant to be

the most important part

2010-04-07T02:23:00.002+08:00

it lingers
it lingers all the way
baby now, be mine
sweety now, we're fine

you can take me all the way to heaven
and fall down hard together back to earth
you can sooth my night with the sweetest melody
and brought me all the way to all that it's worth

i can never get tired of those
calming smiles
cute brown eyes
and i can promise you
that there will be no lies

your smell lingers
it lingers all the way
baby now, no force
sweety now, I'm yours

old man

2010-03-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

thank you for teaching me

the goods and the bads

the precious and the worthless

the shines and the glooms

the forever and the substitutes

i would hang around more often and left

if only i knew the teaching impacts earlier

very nice old man

i will hold my thoughts and dreams

i will change the natural behavior

my tears are dried

now i smile wide

though it is faked

not that i faded

anymore

i say, thank you

very nice old man

i shall bury the memories

in a beautiful place

close to a heavenly phase

here you are by alyssa bernal

2010-02-17T01:40:00.002+08:00

Tonight, I met a boy, and he seemed so quite familiar.
Don't know where he's from, or what he's all about.
But all I know is that I wanna be his friend;
Get to know him a little better, and maybe hold his hand.
And as the night went on, he got a little sweeter.
And after that, he had me wrapped around his finger.

I used to tell myself i wouldn't fall in love,
unless he was the guy of my dreams.

But here you are with my heart right beside me.
Never thought that I'd follow through with my belief.
You took a dream and made it so real.
And I love the way this dream makes me feel;
here you are! Here you are.

The rest is history, we got this down so well.
That boy's my energy when all I wanna do is dwell.
And i love remembering the night that we first met.
That story never gets old, oh how could we forget?

I used to tell myself I wouldn't fall in love,
unless he was the guy of my dreams.

But here you are with my heart right beside me.
Never thought that I'd follow through with my belief.
You took a dream and made it so real.
And I love the way this dream makes me feel;
here you are!

I never thought that I'd ever feel the way I do when you're around.
And on that ordinary night it was love that I found.

Here you are with my heart right beside me.
Never thought that I'd follow through with my belief.
You took a dream and made it so real.
And I love the way this dream makes me feel.
Here you are!

Tonight, I met a boy, and he seemed so familiar..
La da da da da da da da da da

it's just a myth

2010-01-07T14:20:00.002+08:00

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion taking me over
Caught up in sorrow
Lost in the song
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to hold me tight?
Don't you know there's nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
-Emotion,Destiny's Child

it's the mythical bliss that made me went that far
so as it stops, i try to go further
my days were empty and still
considering it was already numb and cold
but i was filling it with our memories
i fought with the darkness that kept accompany me
i fought with all the truth and lies for you goodness sake
i tried to win but i was already lost
not in any argument
not in any fight
but to be honest, i've lost in you
keep me dry dear lord
i don't wanna fall this hard.

and now, it returns
my days are empty and still
considering it has already numb and cold.

limitations

2010-01-06T01:12:00.002+08:00

i might smile and laugh and cry and beg for forgiveness and smile again and laugh again and cry again and beg for forgiveness and go through the whole process over and over again. and as everybody keeps on reminding me, everybody has their own limits for patience. i wonder where did MY LIMIT go that nobody sees it?

senyum

2010-01-01T08:36:00.002+08:00

indah, tapi pedih
perit tapi manis
lupakan, tapi teringat-ingat
sedih, tapi masih berjaga

jangan endahkan bisa-bisa yang beracun
habisnya kita tersenyum ketawa
hati pun bersih tanpa luka
dunia jadi seindah purnama

penghabitat rimba konkrit
bermula dengan "have fun" cara mudah
dan pengakhiran bergolek, cara mudah

endahkan kemanisan bersahaja
endahkan kesakitan sementara
tangis bukan untuk merana
tapi untuk menyedar tanpa dusta
dunia bukan hanya untuk kita

kelly clarkson - already gone

2009-11-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

lost

2009-10-31T16:49:00.002+08:00

for now, i don't have anything to write. mayeb bcz i've lost my inspiration. i've lost the soul that has been keeping me writing. i'm not sad nor happy. i'm just confused. i know what the hell went wrong but i don't know how to fix it. so, till things are fixed. i'm off to my final exam. wish me luck!

test 2 calculus 23rd march 09

2009-10-31T16:36:00.002+08:00

when it's all complains
and tears strains
so i just wanna run away
wonders of thought
crying out loud
help me stand through this day

so, i keep running, i keep running
just, how far this never ends
i fear i'll never touch
the sky is near but it's all pretend

i need to feel
this numbness pain
flowing through my vein
to live without your highest pride
i failed to catch a breath

a long lost friend

2009-10-21T00:02:00.003+08:00

it's everything it is now
another roadway to be stared at
another hands to be shivered
and another pair of eye to be distinguished

a long lost friend said goodbye without a tear
a long lost friend said hello again in silence
hello, insecure. welcome back in joining the club.

the gloomy sunday

2009-10-04T13:41:00.002+08:00

it's the gloomy sunday again
and i feel restrain

the watch ticks time
with no mercy, no boundaries
i saw you at the corner of the time
so i turned away

"why'd you turn away?", you asked.
i looked at you, silently with eyes full of diamonds
a cuddle nights onto me
"don't cry, i'm here", you always said

starry nights showed haow many questions i've been
wanting to ask
but the cloud always kept me silent
it was dark, it's what i'm afraid of
and the moon, she tried to calm me
either her, nor you, i lost myself already

since it's the gloomy sunday again
oh God, please.. don't let it rain.

i am lucky.

2009-08-25T15:52:00.003+08:00

if i had to go with the tears for a thousand years,
just to make you happy,
i definitely would.
and i will never let you know if it hurts or bliss me.
because either way,
i am happy
and i will always smile and laugh in your dear wonderful sights of view..
so that each time you could see me, hear me, have me..
you will always know how happy i am
just to be with you.

do re mi fa so la ti do

2009-08-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

hey, you
do you remember that moment?
when we used to talk and laugh?

hey, you
do you remember that smile?
the craziest that made me go wild?

oh, i do
i always do

now if i could ask for one more chance
to stand up and see your glance
i'd fight for it
i'd die for it
just be with me again

hey, you
i still remember that feeling
it brought tears while the watch is ticking

oh, i do
i always do

now if i could ask for one more chance
to stand up and see your glance
i'd fight for it
i'd die for it
will you be with me again?

another sorry

2009-07-24T12:09:00.001+08:00

actually,i have tons of poems to post but since there are certain things that i think would hurt some people if i post them, i take the decision not to. i'll try to make some other pieces that's universal. soon! wait for it!

xoxo

To Me - Otsuka Ai

2009-07-07T18:43:00.001+08:00

ねぇ君は誰　どうして　そんなところで
ヒザを抱え込んで泣いているの？
あぁ君はいつかの僕だ
自分だけ置いてきぼり　悲しいんだね

風と緑と戯れたっけなぁ
裸足で噛んだ大地は優しくて
夢を描いた　果てしないまま
いつか途切れると　知らないまま

誰もがそれぞれに痛みを背負って
繰り返す今日を　必死で生きている
上手に歩けるさコンクリートの道の上
土と風の匂いに振り返りながら

君が君自身を信じれないでさ
誰が君のことを信じるの？
自信をもっていいはずさ　もう一度勇気を振り絞る

疑いはしないさ　この道の行方
いつかたどり着ける　そう信じていく
裸足で歩くのは少し冷たくて
くじけそうになる日もあるんだろう

誰もがそれぞれに痛みを背負って
繰り返す今日を　必死で生きている
上手に歩けるさコンクリートの道の上
土と風の匂いに振り返りながら

歩いてく

Translation:
hey, who are you? why are you in that sort of place,
hugging your knees and crying?
...you are the way I am sometimes
you're sad from being the only one left behind, aren't you?

frollicking with the wind and greenery
the earth is kind upon your bare feet
the endless sketched dream as it is...
...as it is not knowing that it would end someday

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

you can't believe in yourself...
who would believe in you?
it should be ok to have confidence... one more time, muster up courage

I don't doubt where this road is heading
I will get there someday, I go on believing so
There may be some days you want to give up
because it is a little too cold to walk barefooted...

everyone, as individuals, carrying with them pain
desperately living the repetition of today
able to walk skillfully upon the concrete streets
the fragrance of earth and wind causing you to look over your shoulder

continue to walk onward

missing you

2009-06-26T20:15:00.000+08:00

i've configured things between you and me
and i kept the settling down inside my head
so i found away
it keeps on hurting
but to me its as sweet as it is
missing you is waiting for heaven to come

i don't need to be yuna to be cool
i don't need marie' digby to refer a song for you
i don't want to sing as they do
but i just want to be the song for you
so that it's enough to make you smile, cry and smile again
i don't want to play the guitar chords
and make rhythms for you
because i want to be the rhythm of you
its a denial for me to make songs about you
because i am you

do you know?

2009-06-07T04:52:00.000+08:00

do you know
how much i love you when i'm in love with you?

do you know
if i have to be stupid to make you happy then, i would
do you know
if i have to chase a star to make you stay then, i would
do you know,
if i have to cut my hair to get your attention then, i would
do you know,
if i have to choose you from a high heel then, i would
do you know,
if i had to smile big in my sadness to make you smile then, i would
do you know,
if i have to wander the whole world to find happiness for you then, i would

do you know,
that i wouldn't change you for anything in the world
in fact, the world it self
and do you know,
if i wanna leave you i wouldn't write this such thing.

i miss you [04:23 30 MAY 2009]

2009-05-30T04:18:00.000+08:00

as much as i miss you
i'm hoping that you know

i wanna hold your hands
be the shoulder when you needed one
i wanna give a little hug
hoping it'll make you better
i wanna give a simple kiss
hoping it'll change your view

i wanna be with you
with all the love we have
surrounded..
i wanted to just see you
for at least
i can see you smile
ended, the word will never be...

i'd choose you

2009-05-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

if i had to face the world alone with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if had to run along with the world with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to fake my smiles n be around them with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if had to open up my heart n let it be taken up of a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to figure things out with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to climb an uphill mountain with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to color the view of my destiny with a person to choose
i'd choose you
if i had to choose a person to warm up the sky for me
i'd choose you

i believe in miracles [18:50 May 23rd, 09]

2009-05-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

another silence
and i kept on wondering
wonders..wonders..wonders..

remain silent
as i'm forgetting the noises
forgive..forget..forgotten

i believe in miracle
the second i found you
all problems settled
and we're enjoying the view

we go with the flow
everything is flawless
as i always watch you go
you always keep me breathless

we smiled, we laughed
oh... i'm hoping this will never fade

imagine

2009-05-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

if you wonder how did things end up like we are now,
have my world
imagine

i'm living just to hear you breathing
i waited for the sun to rise
so that we can watch it sets down; together
for just another phrase, its not original
but i'm sure you can see it through
yes, i love you
just how hard it is to believe
i can promise you its true
so have my world,
imagine

inspiration :: my love <3

xoxo

titled :: no idea 08 05 2009 1649H

2009-05-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

trying to define
what you had in mind
i wonder where'd things gone wrong
wish you'd always be mine

wanna find a way
how to make you stay
oh.. please honey please don't go
wish you'd always be mine

i can't see why
i don't ever want to let you go
and why
would you ever wanna let me go
coz everything's alright
until we had this fight
i wonder why
please, babe..
don't you ever let me go

i've been trying to sing
every word you mean
i wanna be the song for you
wish you'd always be mine

i won't ever run
when it comes undone
i know our love is true
wish you'd always be mine

please babe..
don't you ever let me go

inspiration :: GOD knows

08 MAY 2008 peter pan

2009-04-29T17:46:00.000+08:00

you kept me up when i fall down
but you blew the stars away that i'm catching
then you climbed the moon to tell me how i'm beautiful
to be on the sun
the centre of the universe
you took my hands and leap on the rocks
take me to the fantasy
and there i am
wearing the crown of your heart
beds of roses right before me
then i started to fall, sinking
right into you

another blink of eye
made me realize
the new angel held tight in your arms
falling from the sky
there's no more tears to dry
finding a way to calm

so i play by ear
the secret song of a broken hearted girl

titled :: *shh!

2009-04-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

its our story that doesn't start with a starter
its our story that i hoped would just never end
i wanna be in the scene
where on our way there's nothing stands
and i wish we cud stay be

another day another chapter
another smile another laughter
it is sweet when we dreamt of the future
iti s sweet when we went through the past
and it's just sweet that we're still here in the present

no more pretend
i let you wander around the truth
for you to see me just through

another frown stays on you forehead
your eyes looked down and i finally said
"hold me baby, i got my trust on you"
and then we hold hands and things got intense
sudden silence but we both understand

30/04/2008

2009-04-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

I've never seen the sky so blue
until the day comes when we meet again
back then it was me and you
only the oceans are blue but the sky was gray
so the waves go waving along the sand
now it's a we, an us and nothing stands
on our way to survive this
we kept it long ago but it didn't just go
it stays until we get the first kiss
we were broken by those who let us go
but we've never known the bliss existed between us
we were there for each other
i cried on your shoulder and you cried on mine

its not that i wanna spell it out for you
but just yesterday i woke up
and suddenly felt like calling you
i realized by then
that i was made for you

stay away

2009-04-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

i care for the one i love
i care for the one i need
i care for the one..the chosen one
we lived today as we met
we dried tears with our sweet laughs
we kissed the pain away when we locked our smiles
end it please with a never ending bliss
oh..agony. stay away from our heaven
we dare not to burn it to ashes
we dare not to make it final
as we are dreaming our hearts, its obvious

O LORD..dun make our senses dried of happiness
so that we cud get the the signal
until then
we dare not to make it final

i've posted it

2009-03-29T02:15:00.000+08:00

make an end properly or erase it and just start over,remember?

i see sunshines coming over
i see pouring rain before the summer
and then cloudless sky with rainbows of colour
i seek anger and get smiled at
i seek for revenge and get loved, fortunate
you came early
realizing you saved me
i don't need superheroes
when you're there backing up the flows
i laughed
i smiled
i dare to swear
that tears have stopped haunting to scare

so this time
i never want to make a proper end
nor erasing memories

so, please tell him, mr shiny star
"i'm always here where you are"

kryptonite

2009-03-21T02:06:00.000+08:00

i'm starting fall into
a deep conversation
as he saw me through
laugh with me
smile with me
shed tears away that stained
nor the pain remained
i kept myself to secret
and for once
you were the kryptonite
that weakens me all the way
losen the facts held tight
losen the strength i stood for the right
made the word kept spitted out
made me fall to pieces
and i cried
right beside the window of happiness
thanking GOD that i found you

inspiration :: kini

deceiving

2009-03-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

trust deceived
sounds like normal to me
until he end i did
stay and go with the melody

people hating
sounds like heaven to me
another choice for wandering
around the world solemnly

as much as you feel
as much as i think
things happening are real
and words blurt out on everything

lies within never try to control
watches ticking handling the time
indeed, it's the time i fall
begging forgiveness on the most possible crimes

i stayed for the reasons i can see
as heaven speaks you make me said
love, will you please keep me in strength
or just maybe
keep me standing till i lay on the bed

tunjukkan aku - boneca

2009-02-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

Musik dari jiwa
Lagu dari hati
Cerita sepurnama
Canda dan menangis

Belum ku selami
Caturan terjadi
Lelah dipukul badai
Apa mungkin terlerai?

Oh...

Soalan tersendu
Balas hampa bisu
Tuhan, tunjuk sesuatu
Apa dia yang satu itu?

Tunjukkan aku
Tunjukkan aku

Apa bisa ku cinta
Kamu seperti mana
Aku dicinta kamu?
Aku dijaga kamu?
Atau kamu terlalu
Indah buat diriku?
Beda dari diriku?
Aku pun tak menahu

Aku pun tak menahu
Aku pun tak menahu

Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?
Apa bisa ku cinta?

Tuhan, tunjukkan aku

*furqon

2009-02-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

whispering names
thriving help
i'm sitting...just right at the corner
wondering if people could see me through
i lay low, thinking
will they notice if i live
will they just notice if i die
if i summon happiness to survive
will they even hear my cry?
endless pain resorts to live
silently condemning the blissful laugh
Ya..Allah
give me the strength to be deaf
give me the strength to be blinded
so i can see nor listen to nobody
i let the scent of roses on the air for them to enjoy
but it doesn't seem to make better lives worth living
maybe i should just fade it away
at least it'll change nothing..

situation :: dun ask

sorry

2009-02-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

eyt, it's been so long that i've updated this thing. sorry meyh...but ever since i didn't have any ideas left. those that i've wrote was all my sorrows from my former breakup scene. ha-ha. but i'll try my best tp find some new materials. even now i had this scar pain from my last appendix operation. it was bloody hurtful that i cried for the pain. i'll try to find some of ideas from it. lol! till then, tata~

xoxo

1645H - katel - dorm - game parade

2009-02-13T02:15:00.000+08:00

imma pass out the crown
to the new princess
but i need to first warn
cinderella's don't always have a happy ending
well, sometimes,
they're just meant to be at the chimney
living their lives; their destiny
now that i could fall back to reality
let me rest from the seconds i wasted
let me breath for the wounds wanna heal
let me open up my eyes for the sake of reality
let it speak thruogh the pain
let it heal the pain i've gained
so it would all go away
away with the wind it would go by
so i could just stay

inspiration :: the last poetry

0955H BK02-05 MALAYSIAN NATIONHOOD

2009-02-12T12:54:00.000+08:00

it reckons to know that i lived for love
but yet you turned the blue sky grey
mists from heaven must've mistaken
this sky shouldn't be mine

you said you loved me
more than i did
you said you wanna be with me
more than i wanted
but the grey sky told me different
you turned me down with the gloomy scent

i smelt the darkness
the view of agony
i reached the hell of happiness
watching you smile; with no pretend
while i'm here faking smiles to get over the past
of things i hoped; for it didn't last

the shoes

2009-02-12T12:46:00.000+08:00

these shoes i'm wearing

it suddenly doesn't fit any longer

so i stepped out of the shoes

as i'm not the cinderella anymore

please... take care of the prince, new cinderella

he might slipped off but never let him go

waste him not for the sake of love

inspiration :: teardrops on my guitar + love story

somebody save me

2009-02-10T04:51:00.000+08:00

i don't cry for undenials
i don't laugh of insults
i don't think for regrets
i don't make fool of the whole set
i don't walk away from my life
i don't give up for the one i love
i don't catch drama's in the middle of a war
i don't fool myself to catch up laughters
i don't waste time on losers
i don't do judgementals
i don't take notice of the big issues
i don't keep the hurtful memories
cz i don't clean them when times go wrong

memories are just meant to be remembered
it was blissful yet undeniably hurtful
never to realize it controls your posession and position
i turn to YOU when there's no where to turn to
i pray for YOU to come and save me
save me from myself...

BAU - WARKAH

2009-02-06T01:42:00.000+08:00

takkan lagi aku menunggumu
kau hadir dalam mimpi-mimpiku
puasku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti mereka yang punya cinta
diriku... tanpa dirimu
kau tempuhi dengan bahagia
diriku mahu kau tahu
pedih ini kau tak terasa
warkahku mengharapkan dirimu
seperti setianya kepada dirimu
tapiku melepaskanmu
malangkah namun tak berdaya
terus ku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada
tapiku melepaskanmu
melangkah namun tak berdaya
terus ku terus menunggu
cinta yang takkan pernah ada

04 0930H FEBRUARY 2009 - let's play pretend

2009-02-05T01:04:00.000+08:00

i don't want to forget our memories
i want it to be erased

so make an end properly
or we could just start again
a simple hello would've make me stay
but the goodbye you gave me that hurts the most
overlapthe dream we just had
so no one gets confused
as we has so many stories
let's choose one and show it to them
let them wander around the greatest things
let them see the blissful world around them

because i don't want to forget our memories
i want it to be erased

situation :: now

0815H klas 2-5 (malaysian nationhood)

2009-02-04T00:34:00.000+08:00

i kept my words
as footsteps grinding away
with the bell ringing
i kept quite
calm... steady
the metaphor's getting lunatic
it's weighty and exquisite
yet i stayed; defined

i was left undone
that it took a bed of roses
to calm me down
it took thousands of thorns
to hurt me at all
but a single word from you
to let me die

*because i was left undone
and yet i stayed; defined

situation :: to be hurt with emptiness

you are the most beautiful poetry

2009-01-29T20:14:00.000+08:00

i wanted to make you understand how i feel. but no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't. i tried for days. the more i write, the more empty my words sounded. et first, i felt panic. i couldn't sleep for many days. but then, the panic goes away everytime i see yor face, or just heard your voice. i used to write poetry becauese to me, it was likw riting letters to GOD; to tell someone i couldn't see how i felt inside. then finally GOD replied. with a poem more beautiful than anything i had ever written. He gave me you.

you are my poetry from GOD. let hear your voice. please call me. i will be waiting. just call me. so ican sleep peacefully again.

:: a script taken from SEPET. Jason's lines.

fix you

2009-01-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

and i think i said what i wasn't
things turned out hard
when i'm about to reached the sky
i lose my strength
i fall to pieces
everytime i saw your face
i found my life
retoricly undeniable to sickness
i walked away of life
as you went away and scared me to death
i nearly gave up
to see the world spinning
to see people changing
to see kids grow up
to see the laughs and cry
to feel the ending of a love story
so it ends without hurting
so it hurts without feeling
so i felt without crying
so i cry without tears

then i fall back into the reality
i was given a chance to feel again

inspiration :: now

disappeared

2009-01-27T20:37:00.000+08:00

your lips are sealed with broken glasses
makes me bleed each time we kissed
your heart is coated with thorns
hurting me all along i'm loving you
your sweet words are dipped into poisons
killling me each time i heard you say that you love me

i walked slowly into the dreamworld you promised me
then i saw you there smiling to me
i tried to run and catch you
but you seem to be closer but further
further away it became dramatic
things go wild and changes have tied
you waved your hands put your hands out
i tried to reach but suddenly
i found you another angel standing behind you
made me want to stop catching you
but i really can't stop
my heart is pounding faster but slower at the same time
a glimpse of our memory counts in my head
my eyes blinked with teardrops dropping
i kept on running in blur
then i realized
that i have disappeared in the world we created

inspiration :: the "last" one

myspace

2009-01-27T00:37:00.000+08:00

take your places everybody
it's seven seconds away to heaven
i kissed an angel
to leave the agony
as the price gets sky high
it turns out a mess
my hands in yours
so the pain is less
why would i cry?
its only a matter of fate
i got carried away of the grey clouds
that i forgot
there's always rainbow after the rain
it ends perfectly well
bcz i met you

inspiration :: lovers in myspace

xoxo

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2009-01-25T13:59:00.000+08:00

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